Why Me? What did I do?

some people surprise me.

consider both scenes…

Scene 1: 

Audit Committee members were gathered at the Boardroom. i handed Mr. Ang (adviser) the materials for the meeting, afterwhich, he asked, ‘Are you alreM?’ of course, i said yes, but he looked at me rather differently as if he knows something good about me. he was in awe, as if saying, ’so you’re that girl!’ 

Scene 2: 

our newly appointed corporate secretary dropped by the office for the first time to have a briefing on the status of the company and the legal affairs that might be essential to his existence. as such, he was welcomed by Atty. Martin, our asst. Corsec and AVP. after the meeting and to my surprise, both Corsecs dropped by my area and Atty. Martin introduced me to the new corsec. i sensed a certain pride in Atty. Martin’s tone as he was introducing me, no extra words, not too sweet or catchy, but the entire conversation was in itself a total surprise. how many bosses would introduce their staff the same way he did?! of course, i was elated a little bit, but more than the surprise— hey, was i flabbergasted!

i started asking myself:

WHY ME? WHAT DID I DO??? 

of course i didn’t want to assume that they are talking (good) things about me. but sometimes, good notions cannot be suppressed. one need not be clairvoyant or a mind-reader to be able to guage one’s perception of you. just the way they look, the pride in their voice, the certain awed perpection, the silent respect. these are enough positive things to keep me going everyday.

still i cannot help but ask ‘Why me?’ and ‘What did i do?’ i get curious everytime.

Francis Kong, in his blog, posted ‘Do Not Ask “Why Me?”, and i qoute:

Have you ever caught yourself in a (difficult) situation and then the words come out of your mouth saying. “But God, why me?” My experience in most of these cases is that God never answers you the “why” question because even if He does you and I would either be so scared to death or we simply would not understand.

yep, perhaps i really will not understand.

besides, i must be doing something good that’s why i am silently appreciated.

that’s a really exhilirating thought…